No matter how strong I try to make myself, at the end i always feel so week
I didnt want to make fools of them
I never wanted to disrespect them either
I honestly just wanted to make her happy you know?
I felt like if I didnt, how else was I supposed to show her my feelings?
I know what I did was wrong, but I it was right because it was for her.
I would take it back it for them at the same time I wouldnt for her.
They treated me like one of the family, and I saw them the same way to be honest, however, she treated me so right though.
Now I don’t have either…
:/ I hate my decions in life. they always screw me over
My life just trastically changed… I went from destroyed to happy.. But is what she says true? I beleive her, but ths seems to much of a dream. If it is i hope I never wake up. I love you Angel food cake :3 <3
Slowly losing my mind and my reasoning… I just not happy without her:’(
If she loves me why does she keep doing this? does she want me to be harmed? I just want it to stop… I just want her and me to be better :’( You say you want me alexis but then why dont we have each other? why do you call him baby and let him do the same to you? don’t you know he’s using you? look at what he does already and you don’t even know him that well.. please just stop… :’[ I need you back, please? :’(
If i’m overly agrressive, wouldn’t I have already done the things i said? I shouldn’t have to prove anything…. just think back i have been sitting back doing nothing because I know I have an anger management problem, because I really care enough not to do anything for you. Do you even think about that? All the times i wanted to explode and I didn’t was because of you, nothing else. Do I have to name all the times I didn’t? Fuck what the hell happend to us just read over your own notes, your memories, etc. Anything of everything Alexis.. Just stop and think :’(
